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Yosuke Hanamura

Iiiiiiit's Yosuke! You know what to do. And if you don't, leave a message after the tone. Beep! ...Haha, okay, for real now.

陽介だぜ！わかんねぇだろうな？メッセージを残ってくれ！ピーッつってん後で。ピーッ！　。。。はは、じゃ、まじで。

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[ His heart's in his throat as he stares at his phone.

If he does this, there's no taking it back. Even Yosuke won't be able to mistake the intentions here... right?

... it has to be worth it to try. The gift, the things he's been hearing, the way Yosuke himself looks at him ...

Brave. Be brave. Be brave... ]

Hey. I made you something.

[ The next text is simply this link. ]

Let me know what you think of it tomorrow.

[ Hm? Yosuke probably shouldn't even be awake, but you know, he hasn't been sleeping much lately. Too much time dicking around on his phone, really. (He could be studying but finals are over so who cares?) So it's not exactly a surprise that Yu is texting him. They've been hanging out a lot recently and honestly most of his texts have been from Yu, too. No big.

This is a little random, though. ]

yea sure thing

[ Click. ]

[ Yosuke plugs his headphones into the audio jack of his phone and lays down on his bed. Lights out, might as well chill with some music and doze since he can't sleep, right? Slipping one arm behind his head under the pillow, he holds his phone in the other, thumb hovering over the play icon-- ]

"A new beginning"?

[ Artsy name...? Hm. Or maybe Yu is discovering new music? That would be cool. He does feel kind of special that Yu would want to share his discovery with Yosuke.

With that, he pushes play and then lays the phone face down on his chest. ]

[ This first song...it's not one he recognizes, really. But it's pretty catchy and the girl has an interesting voice. He taps his finger idly on the back of his phone as he listens.

The next song...hmm, she's also got a pretty voice. Yu really likes covers, doesn't he? Everything that's more real and acoustic, less frills and down to the basics. Clean--definitely suits his style. It's a cute song.

The third...okay, he's heard this one too, but not this version... ]

[ ...Huh. Yosuke opens his eyes, staring up at the dark ceiling of his room. It's dimly lit due to some of the electronics and general light pollution that peaks through the blinds, but it's enough to give Yosuke a few bits of the textured paint to focus on.

Yeah, these are kind of chill, but he's starting to notice a common thread here. It's not just in style, is it? He's not super into folk, but...

Okay, the fourth one is a little silly, a little off beat. Then why is he unable to just relax and listen to it like he was the first few?

But the best story that I could ever tell is the one where I'm growing old with you... ]

...

[ I caught a giant squid in all the seven seas--

Okay, no, he's just overthinking--

But their kingdoms seemed all shrivelly and they cried with jealousy
When I leaned in and told them about you. ]

......

[ He's... ]

[ If the first four songs made him suspicious, then the fifth hits him like a truck. Yosuke listens, wide-eyed, mouth agape.

I am trying, not to tell you
But I want to,
I'm scared of what you'll say
And so I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

No. No, it's just a song, right? It's just a song that musically seems so totally Yu and yet is also somehow totally reminiscent of the fact that Yosuke recommended that Yu find some sweet guitar music to listen to. That's what he did, didn't he? Found something that's supposed to suit both of their tastes.

Hey. I made you something.

He...

I made you something. ]

Shit--

[ Yosuke sits up in bed. The music continues playing through his headphones like it isn't totally assaulting his sensibilities.

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you ]

[ Bowling for Soup is almost a godsend right now. They're so quirky and weird but you know, he needs something light hearted. He needs something.

What does he need?

God, he's suddenly full of so much energy. Yosuke laughs awkwardly to himself, hunched over now looking at the screen of his phone. This is so not one of their happiest songs. No, not at all.

There's no me with no you. ]

Are you being serious here...?

[ He's fidgeting--he keeps bringing up Yu's next, reading it over and over.

Hey. I made you something. Let me know what you think of it tomorrow. ]

Wh-what I think of it?

[ What does he think of it? ]

Okay, hold up...

[ He's got to go through this logically. For all that Yosuke has a tendency to jump to conclusions, he totally has the ability to step back and look at a situation with a more rational mind when he reminds himself too. Right as "My Life Would Suck Without You" begins, Yosuke takes a moment to pause. And to not freak out.

And totally ignore the fact that his palms feel a little sweaty.

What do these songs all have in common? ]

Unplugged, for the most part...

[ Okay, one. ]

A lot of them are covers...

[ Two, totally normal. ]

And they're--

[ They're all love songs.

Hey. I made you something. ]

D-Don't jump to conclusions, Yosuke--...like, almost every popular song is a love song to some degree..

[ It makes sense. It makes total sense. Yosuke knows better than to force his own questions and insecurities on others--or at least he tries hard not to if he's aware of it. Where his mind has been the past couple weeks...it's only too easy to assume things that he thinks (wants?) to see.

Calm down, Yosuke.

One song moves onto the next. He manages to keep himself fairly upbeat with Weezer, even if his heart is still racing. Because this song--If You Were Wondering, I Want You Too.

God.

Has he been wondering?

Yosuke swallows. ]

[ It's a good thing that Yosuke is actually looking at his phone as the last video comes up, and he's surprised to see a very familiar face. Not a celebrity, no--someone much more important.

It's Yu. Yosuke blinks, brows raised, as he recognizes the room--it's that silly cat room at the twins' apartment that Yu had decided to set up the keyboard in. (Why he doesn't want his own room is beyond Yosuke.) He almost wants to laugh. Did Yu seriously record himself in his apartment? That sounds like something Yosuke would do...

...And then he starts playing.

He's heard Yu play before. They've dicked around a bit, so Yosuke knows that Yu is talented, but he's generally reserved when he plays. His posture is excellent and his hands know exactly how and where to move. There's years of practice in those fingers and this recording is no different, except...

He's never seen Yu move quite like that. The way he sways, growing more and more intense as the song progresses. Yosuke, for a moment, forgets entirely about his own embarrassment and wandering trains of thought just to watch. It doesn't matter that the video quality isn't the best. Not when Yu is so completely engrossed in his music, playing something so beautiful off that keyboard that Yosuke gave him.

His chest swells with...something.

As the song slows to its competition, Yosuke only vaguely realizes he's gaping. When Yu turns towards the camera, it's Yosuke that feels like he's being watched.

Hey. I made you something. ]

You--

[ The video ends with one final look.

The playlist automatically goes to the beginning. ]

--you really...made this for me...?

...

[ Yosuke falls sideways back onto his bed.

I didn’t know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I wanna get better, better, better, better

If you gave me a chance I would take it
It's a shot in the dark but I'll make it
Know with all of your heart, you can't shame me
When I am with you, there's no place I rather be

He lets the songs cycle through again, each time the weight taking its place on his chest as his heart beats furiously in protest. With every repeat, the words and melody dig deeper and deeper into his bones and squeeze his veins. Really, that's the only logical reason for why he's feeling hyper and lightheaded at the same time, right?

Well, I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms

I have walked a million miles in a hundred pairs of shoes
In search of some universal truth
Well a deity just came to me and handed me a scroll to read
And I will gladly pass it on to you

He glances at the clock beside his bed. The time flashes 2:34 AM, and somehow he doesn't feel tired at all. No, he's half tempted to jump out of bed and do a few laps around the block. Is it excitement? He's not sure what to label it. But whatever it is, it makes him fidget, roll over onto his stomach and look back at his phone.

He scrolls through his text conversations with Yu. As far back as they go.

I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm a star without a sky
I'm hello with no goodbye
I'm the the dreams we had that never will come true
That's me with no you

He flips through pictures on his phone. Dumb selfies he took with the intention of posting them on Instagram, others just for fun. He forced Yu to pose with a few of them without his damn cats. He's not sure if it makes him want to smile or laugh or just hide his face. He feels like the picture is looking back at him. Is it silly?

He feels so silly. It's past three in the morning, he shouldn't feel this silly or giddy.

I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out I'm nothing without you

Then the conversation stopped, and I looked down at my feet
I was next to you and you were right there next to me
And I said girl!
If you're wondering if I want you to, I want you to

He silently mouths the words "I want you too..."

Is...is that what he does? ]

I...

[ So make a move, (Make a move) 'cause I ain't got all night. ]

This is...

[ I swear it's true (I swear it's true) without you, my heart is blue ]

Oh my god.

[ So make a move, (Make a move) 'cause I ain't got all night. ]

[ Yosuke shoves his face into his pillow and kicks his feet, feeling like a four year-old all of a sudden. There's no way he's taking this the wrong way, is there? No, he's listened to this playlist at least ten times by now. He just needs to allow himself to believe it.

Because this is what he was wondering about, wasn't he? Not necessarily how Yu might feel, since that seemed almost impossible from Yosuke's perspective, but how he feels...

Hey. I made you something.

Let me know what you think of it tomorrow.

He shakes his head, smothering his face into his pillow, words muffled, but no one needs to hear what he's kind of known for a while. ]

I want you too.

[ He huffs. The playlist starts over. ]

Edited 2017-06-10 05:49 (UTC)

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DONE I GUESS