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[ Yosuke keeps his gaze straight ahead, trying not to focus all of his energy on where their fingers are carefully intertwined. It's such a small thing but it feels so much bigger--he's never really held anyone's hand before, not like this. Not walking around holding it, except maybe his mom when he was a kid or Keigo when he was even younger.

Definitely not like this.

He raises his head up, though, to look over at Yu. ]

Yeah? I'm sad I missed it.

[ Yu on DDR, with or without sleep ]

Um...

[ Nothing? That's what it feels like. Nothing other than freaking out. ]

I just...helped clean up a bit after the ceremony, also since I felt bad about screwing up. Keigo helped with that too and we started talking a bit, so...erm, he kinda of knows? I'm sorry I should have asked first but it all kind of came out and I wasn't planning on saying anything to anyone until we talked because I don't really want to know or assume anything but, um. Yeah. That happened. And then I went home and hung out with my mom for a bit since she's into these Japanese cooking magazines and wanted to try out a new recipe with me. And then I just kind of chilled...

[ Which basically means he spent most of the night rolling around on his bed with too much energy and not enough sleep while waiting for Yu to text him. ]

[ Yu has never done anything like this before, either.

It's just easier for him to keep his mortal terror of messing up hidden beneath his skin. He's trying really hard to have faith. To believe this will work out. After all, they have each other. They're doing this together. If he makes mistakes, Yosuke will help him through it, and he'll do the same for Yosuke.

They'll be okay, won't they?

While Yosuke explains Yu will watch him, mentally noting the way he kind of rambles. He must still be feeling pretty nervous... which is okay. He is, too. ]

It's alright.

[ Carefully, slowly, he properly laces their fingers together, so their hands are pressed palm to palm. Real hand holding. God help him. ]

Now we both have one family member who knows. I don't mind that.

[ Just kind of chilled... One corner of Yu's mouth will quirk up. ]

Well, I'm glad that means you were around to answer my texts.

[ His oh so important kaomoji texts. ]

[ Real hand-holding is legit. Like, enough to shut Yosuke up pretty well, legit. Yosuke swallows, sparing another glance down at their joined hands and does everything he can not to combust right there. He takes a quick sweep of the area, making sure that they are still, in fact, alone. He is grateful of the early hour of the morning for something like this...

Yosuke flushes at Yu's comment, kicking a straying pebble with the toe of his shoe. ]

Well, I wasn't sure if you'd need me for anything...

[ Okay, that sounded kind of lame. ]

[ It's hard not to be painfully aware of their hands. Of the way Yosuke is looking down at their hands, and then glancing around for anyone who might see. Then again, he's nervous about getting spotted, too, though he's having a tough time placing exactly why...

Still. This is all normal nerves. It's all okay. Right? Yeah.

Yu gives his hand a squeeze, trying to get Yosuke to look at him, and smiles. ]

I did. After all, who else was I going to test those kaomojis on?

[ There's a lot of implications there, given how lovey dovey most of the kaomojis had been.

Still, after only a brief pause, he'll ask, gentle: ]

Is this okay?

[ Lifts their hands an inch, to show what he means. ]

[ It works. Yosuke blinks as he looks up at Yu, nervous, yes, but not upset. The emojis were definitely heavy on the ridiculous side, but Yosuke would be lying if the said he didn't find it cute. On the contrary, each time he got a text it renewed his will to stay up and he rightfully would roll over on his bed and cover his face in his hands or his pillow to calm himself down.

This guy likes him. Honestly likes him.

Holy shit. ]

You're such a dork...

[ There's no small amount of affection in that, though. His smile is tentative, but hopeful. ]

Huh?

[ Their hands. Yosuke looks down again and his cheeks grow another shade pinker. ]

Y-Yeah. [ His nervous laughter probably doesn't help. He calms himself. ] It's just--I've never really...held hands with anyone I liked before. Not any girl and definitely not--

[ A guy. ]

[ Getting Yosuke's confirmations in return - comments, teasing, judgments and all - had helped to keep Yu calm. Remind him everything was alright. Yosuke may have gotten energy from their texting, but Yu got peace. Peace from Yosuke joking and laughing with him, helping remind him that it was all going to be okay.

I think I like you too!

How many times can he replay those words in his head without it getting old?

I've never really...held hands with anyone I liked before.

Someone he likes.

The answer is that it'll never get old. ]

Me neither, [ he breathes, half a laugh. In a fit of pure happiness, he'll swing their hands, just once, but still. ]

We have plenty of time to learn now, though, don't we?

[ He is definitely worried about doing this wrong--any of it, all of it. Yu is his best friend and he doesn't want to lose that no matter what, especially not by messing this up. So it's nice to hear that his nerves aren't the only ones acting up. Yu gets a sideways, but happy little smile in return.

Especially when he swings their hands. What a dork.

At least it causes Yosuke to hold on tighter. ]

Y-Yeah...we do.

[ As they come to a crosswalk, they slow down. Yosuke looks both ways, eyeing the pedestrian button... ]

Hey...no traffic, wanna make a run for it?

[ It's hard not to get a little thrill from that. Honestly, Yosuke could glance at him funny right now and his heart would probably do flips.

Hm. A deserted crosswalk at 2:30 in the morning... with a sudden grin Yu will tug on Yosuke's hand and pull them both across the street, laughing.

They're in Apprassage... all the schools are here. Schools, with their natural green spaces and, in the lower schools, playgrounds...

That might be fun.

Yu will gently steer them in the direction he's now got in mind, but he's got his focus back on Yosuke. ]

So ... I know we didn't have a lot of time to talk, earlier. Was ... there anything you wanted to ask me?

[ Might as well try and clear the air. The feeling between them isn't a bad one - far from it - but Yu wants to make sure there aren't any lingering questions. ]

[ It was his suggestion, yes, but Yu's sudden desire to do it is just as exciting. Yosuke laughs a little too loudly for the time, but doesn't regret a damn thing. He runs alongside the other boy with a wide grin as they reach the other side.

Of course it turns a little more serious. Yosuke's exuberance sobers a little bit, but he's not unhappy. ]

I...

[ Yosuke exhales slowly, watching Yu carefully. ]

Like...everything? And somehow I can't think of one single question...I'm kind of still having trouble believing this is actually happening. Is that weird?

[ He'll never get tired of seeing that smile on Yosuke's face.

Yu will watch him with a small, crooked smile, and then look down at his feet as they walk. ]

... it's not weird.

[ A breath. ]

I think I've liked you since the beginning. This all feels surreal to me, too.

[ That actually takes him by surprise. Yosuke blinks, brows raising high on his forehead. ]

Really?

[ His lips hang open for a moment as he gapes, before a breathy laugh follows and he shakes his head. ]

That--that's so crazy. You--man, you found me in a trash can!

It's funny...

[ he murmurs, and the faint smirk on his face is more than a little mischievous. ]

How could you be so cute covered in trash? I asked myself that question for at least a week.

Oh my god.

[ This is essentially the physical reaction to all the texts that Yu sent him--he gives Yu's shoulder a playful shove, but is grinning wildly over his shoulder as he pulls Yu forward with him, heading no where in particular. ]

Now you're just messing with me!

[ Oh boy.

Yeah. Yeah, that smile makes his heart do flips. And somersaults, and parkour, and a full set on the uneven bars. Help.

Yu just kind of trots along after him, laughing quietly. ]

I'd never mess with you, Yosuke. [ Perfect innocence. He'll tug on Yosuke's hand lightly, indicating without words where he wants to go. ] In fact, I've never messed with you. I don't know where you're getting this idea.

How can you say that with a straight face?

[ Teasing feels good. They tend to rag on each other a bit normally, playfully, though he's much more aware of the glint in Yu's eyes and the quirk of his lips this time around.

He doesn't need to be told, he follows easily, becoming more and more comfortable with this whole hand-holding in public thing. (Well, deserted public. It's okay for now.) ]

Easily. An innocent man has nothing to hide, after all.

[ Also with a straight face. Look. ~Acting~, okay?

It's not too much further to their destination: a playground. Yu will finally release Yosuke's hand when they get there, feeling sort of bereft when he does, but letting go lets him step in and lift a hand to brush fingers over the various playground structures. He's way too tall for most of them, which makes him smile in a nostalgic kind of way.

His real destination is the swings, of course. ]

What's the last time you visited a playground? [ A mostly rhetorical question, said with half a grin. ]

Uh-huh, sure.

[ Lies.

Yu is just full of adorable lies.

Yosuke is a little surprised by their destination, enough so that he doesn't immediately realize that he misses the feel of Yu's hand until a moment or two later. He follows the other boy over the threshold, shoving his hands into his pockets as he eyes the structures. A jungle gym, monkey bars, slides, see-saw, and swings.

You know, he's skinny enough he might fit on some of those things... ]

Honestly? I can't remember. Feels like forever, though...

[ He pushes the small merry go-round with his foot, watching it spin slowly. ]

[ Their builds aren't too dissimilar, but perhaps especially thanks to months on the swim team, Yu has become a bit more built out. He might get stuck in some of this stuff if he tried it...

But he'll circle around to the merry-go-round, standing on the opposite side of it from Yosuke and spinning it with a hand. ]

It's nostalgic, isn't it? [ Glances off to one side, thoughtful, but in a good way. ]

[ Yosuke is pretty on board with that, really.

He wont be forgetting that bath house memory anytime soon. Just sayin'. ]

Yeah.

[ Except he's watching Yu now, not the merry-go-round. Quietly, contemplatively for a moment too long, before inspiration strikes. Yosuke grins wildly and then jumps onto the merry-go-round, perching his ass one of the metal bars. ]

C'mon, spin it!

[ Yu stands straight, blinking at his best friend - who's now kind of gently spinning atop the merry-go-round.

Well, far be it from Yu to refuse an offer like that. A grin splits his face, one that turns mischievous as he sets his hands on the bars. ]

Alright, but remember you asked.

[ And then he'll spin, putting all his strength behind it. Hanging on tight, Yosuke? ]

[ He wasn't hanging on tight but he definitely is now. ]

Whoa!

[ He underestimated Yu. ~~Could be a turn on at a later time in their relationship.~~. Yosuke nearly topples backwards, but instead manages to throw his weight forwards and hold onto the bar in front of him. Without the threat of falling off? It's really fun. ]

Woohoo!

[ It's empty--he shouldn't be causing too much trouble by shouting at 2:30 in the morning, right? ]

Why don't they make these for people our age!?

[ He'll step back to watch his handiwork, watching Yosuke whip by, with his hands on his hips. He feels sort of proud of himself.

Still, he can't help grinning at how much fun Yosuke is obviously having. As the merry-go-round starts to slow, Yu will grab one of the bars again, but this time he'll run with it, building up speed until he hops on himself and hangs on.

Wow, this is way more intense when you're actually riding it. ]

Hold on!

[ Laughingly, but frankly, he feels a little dizzy. They'll slow down soon, won't they...? ]

[ Who doesn't want to spin around endlessly in circles!? Okay, he would get sick after a while, but right now it's perfect. Slowing down is a little disorienting, but Yu doesn't leave him hanging for long. He let's out another "whoop" as Yu starts running with the thing, and then laughs heartily when he hops on as well. Yosuke can feel his weight shift the ride and it sends his heart in his throat for a second. ]

Ahahaha!

[ This? This is the best.

Yosuke throws his hands in the air. ]

This is the best!

[ Yes, they'll slow, but right now he'll enjoy the adrenaline.

Eventually, it does slow, his head spinning now more than the merry-go-round is. He's almost giggling as he looks to the other side where Yu is situated, bright and happy in the dimly lit playground. ]

[ Yosuke whooping and cheering, clearly having the time of his life - that's enough to get Yu to start laughing, and he can't seem to stop. The two of them spinning and spinning on a merry-go-round on a deserted playground at nearly 3 in the morning...

... this will be a memory he'll always treasure.

Once they finally slow down, Yu will hop off, looking a little green. But his eye is drawn to Yosuke like the other boy really is putting off light. He'll move around towards his friend - boyfriend? - and place a hand on Yosuke's shoulder, ducking his head as if winded. ]

That was more intense than I expected... [ he's fine really ]

[ Don't get sick, Yu. Don't ruin the moment.

Thankfully, he doesn't. The merry-go-round nearly stops, but moves just enough to help bring Yosuke closer to the other boy once he gets off. The hand on Yosuke's shoulder is enough to halt the movement completely. He looks curiously, happily at the other boy's face, on a high from the merry-go-round, from Yu--from everything around them.

Yosuke is breathing hard as well but in the best of ways. Yu's hand on his shoulder feels warm and welcoming. As Yosuke moves to stand, a little dizzy himself with the sudden head rush of being properly upright, his step brings the two of them much, much closer.

His heart skips a beat only a couple inches away from Yu's. His smile fades, but his expression remains open, hazing slightly over with...something. ]

Yeah...

[ Something is definitely more intense, but it's not the merry-go-round. Yosuke's eyes scan Yu's face, brows down to his jaw. He licks his lips slightly and forces himself to look away as he clears his throat. ]

You're not gonna get sick on me, are you?

[ A small grin and some humor to lighten the mood he suddenly brought places... ]

Edited (WHAT IS GRAMMAR) 2017-06-13 05:39 (UTC)

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